Admiring people

I’m rather selective, and careful with whom I choose to esteem highly. These people that I really admire probably do not know that I do admire them, but I hope that in any interaction I may have with them, they’d sense my appreciation for them. Most are a part of my life as acquaintances. A few, I’d be forever grateful for the opportunity to meet (Delilah) and spend some time visiting with them-once I pick my brain back up and re-gather my train of thought and am able to at least say hello.

I have a few reasons to admire a person and it’s never a “just because”. They say or do something that inspires me, or encourages me. The quality of their character really stands out and catches my attention.

Now, the trouble with me, is with these people, any interaction I have with them initially, my brain falls out and I can’t think of a word of conversation to have….that has happened with Every one of them. Silly me, it’s not lack of confidence really…and it’s not “star struck” either, I think it’s just an overwhelming, sense of awe that the person I admire is acknowledging me with a smile, a hello, or even a brief conversation. They might think of me as timid. If they just knew…it’s a deep appreciation for them, I’m not "star struck", I’m not really timid (okay maybe a little), I just really appreciate them, and for some reason, I completely lose my train of thought, and can barely talk to them. Oh well. If they just knew.